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2406O7. Sunday ! @3.59am

its been a while since i bloged in here! its so dead.. i think i should start bloggin agains! holidays is HERE~! wooo baby.. partiies ! :) lolols.. jina sleepin over atm .. :) been seein her 5 days straight nows! (: ahahs.. yehs.. nothing planned for today bside twee & them do come over! if not then probably planning to go to target to get my hello kitty TV and DVD playerr (: yes yes new acesori for my room. i feel like a lil kid ! & probably get my lip pierced since all piercing are 25$ like CHEAPPPP!! (: over 16teen too.. FULL HEKTIK BRO! lolols. im heading to bed i can not barely open my eyelids! x] night my fella blog readers!

. attached much ? .. xx

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1705O7. Thursday ! @11.59am

at albert's place atm.. hahaHO.. slept at his place last night bkos he was lazy to drive me home.. like OMO! we had a huge fight bkos of a stupid rabbit! hrmms.. and then yehs.. ii fall asleep on him.. how embarasing! woke up with chickn hair! hahas.. anyways.. fckn waiting for him to wake up to take me out! hrmms.. dnt evn know wahs happenin today! probably goin for a cruise around again like last night, fck i swear i nearly die so many time lasty night.. it was scary buh i like ii like =] hahas.. ANYWAYS! BDAY PARTY TOMORROW! WOOO.. dance like yu fck! fck like yu dance! lols.. mylay & johnny got a DJ for me and yehs.. got securties and shiet like :O ii feel soo special.. and yeh my bday is combined with khoi this shiet is gonna be big yoo! and so many hot guys! wooooo *drools* hahas.. yeshh.. cant wait..! damnits i need new clothes.. gotta go book for my pericin for next week at industrial 8! rawrrs..

. my feelings is all asnfknfioehgntergrfjhwtgj. .. xx

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1O05O7. Thursday ! @01.19pm

for the past few days ive lost my soul. i dnt know wah im doing nomore.. wells to those whose worried bout me! thnks for actin like yu do, and those who is seriously is worried bout me! im sorry and ii am fine. im such a shelfish coldhearted bitch! i know i know.. ii will fck up my future rara.. buh mayb right now ii need some space to myself and try to escape this life. sweet escape ! rawrs.. those whose been stickin up for me and keepin me save! thnks you.. thank you so much that ii would give up my life to yous!. my love life is gonna get fckd bekos of this.. buh maybe this is how it meant to be.. sorrys.

. i want yu like i need you .. xx

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08O5O7. Tuesday ! @06.45pm

chatterbox; kenny, joolie, mimi, michael.V, kwarn
musics; n/a
status; feeling lost and confused

havnt been blogin in here for a while, wells im gonna update what i did for the past few days..
050507;
went to buddah fest today and watchd spiderman 3 ! it was alright..cruised around and end up goin home around 12ish.the next day.
060507; hoa came and pickd me up. called wendy & joe pickd them up from brown plains. then after that went to mt gravat to play pool. bruce calld up and askd to cruseid to his place for a small party !!. so we droped by and yehs. i was so fckd that night T_T!
070507; got the biggest lecture that day and was packin my bag and leaving home once agains.. life goes on...
**** and now iim gone away from the stupid shitplace. where i dnt hav to put up with anymore of my mum's shiets ! *sighS* havin thoughts of runnin it all the way to syd. buh i dnt know. bkos got no dosh! >< wells.. me & joolie will think of something. aiyahs.. ii feel so free right now. and yehs nothing is botherin me bside.. some of my feelings i feel right now. lovee.. im confused as a motherfcker.. like i seriously dnt know wah i should do, im jst scared of .. aiyahs.. nah ii shouldnt think bout it to much.. like people said.. 'give it some times' .......

. this werid feelings .. .. xx

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04O5O7. Friday ! @10.24pm

chatterbox; N/A ; signed out
feel the beats; pretty boy -m2m
status;EMO to the coreee..

i think this blog is gonna be a bit long, got so many things running throu my mind atm. maybe im jst worried or maybe im jst jealous. or maybe im jst being a fckn loser and thinkin too much about something not even important.. or.. maybe.. im jst lost and confusedd.. **** today went to school and jigged it last period to twee's! vinh came pickd us up and yehs. jst crashd there for awhile! i swear i felt like a fckn emo shiet today.. buh anywhos.. on the way home ! saw a car crashh.. oh em gee! ii was literally shakin, bkos it was so scary it was right in front of my face to. wells i saw a water tank went flyin in the air wen i heard a big bang! fought it was a truck. but oh emgee! my heart was like racing athousand miles! poor cars! x] // got home and got ready for tutor, was so tired but yahs.. got home and ate KFC, sweet, dad;'s gonna buy me a new fone! =] *smiles hardcore* buh what hurts me most is that.. every single things they do for me, iim still a sad ass to them. it hurts me so much that i cant chnage myself to make them proud! it hurts me so much that im such a spoilt kid out of the family and that ii cant do anything in return, ive hurt them in so many ways and yet im still doing it ! sometimes i jst wish i hav cancer and jst diee! but then agains.. that would put them in pain.. *** wells, i guess this is gonna be a long and boring blog. my first time wirting down my feelings. lets hope it makes me feel much better ?. =/ lets hope *finger cross* , shiets i swear it must be the jealousy thats makin me feel like this. but i jst dnt wanna hav a stupid fckn immature fight bkos of some guy. ii dnt want that to happen agains. why am ii thinkin silly things. i know im not suppose to, but its jst a feeling i feel .. im jst scared that she might fall head ovr toes for him & i guess i gotta let him go .. eevn tho it hurt, ! i dnt wanna assume stuff but im jst a very negative person wen it comes to this sorta things.. i wish i was strong and i wish i never know wah love is and i wish i was a cold hearted person with hates in my eyes !! the thoughts of him & her spending times togetdah, jst keep comin back to me and its killin me slowly inside ! and ii promised i wont ever shed a tear for a guy, buh why is it falling ? i jst dnt wnna be anyone's fool. im so sick and fed up being a doormat.. chasin after something that wont be mine like a fckn dog. and im soo sick of feeling like an emo hoe. why cant i be a happy chiild like i was back in the days.? i really hate this.. .. .... to those, im sorry .. for disapointin yu for wah i may be doing soon !.. its the only curee

. let the rain fall down .. xx

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03O5O7. Thursday ! @09.05pm

jigged it to the city agains today, eh so fed up with school. its soo stupid! might go to a beautian college after, :) anyways.. citying met up with joolie, mimi, cuong, michael & dzinh after that saw some more jiggers! hahahO. played the photohunt for a hour! thens traind it all the way back to riverview to joolie cutd her smex haiir ! :) teehees. & she loveees it ! fck. i hate school.. =) i wish the sku burns down and die! grrs. ii feel ii feel.. i dnt knows..
i jst dnt get it.. mayb i shouldnt show him that i like him. mayb i shouldnt even tell him.. the fact that he makes me feel like nothing.. i dnt know.. mayb im jst askin too much from him.. *shurgs* this whole thing is completely stupidd..

. i guess, i was a fool into falling .. xx

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28O4O7. Saturday ! @08.55pm

lied and said goin ovr to do assignments, but really went to city today then joe cant make it so he wanted us to come ovr, wendy & ii busd it there and yehs.. bumed around his place for a while.. then thaii & his fwen came pickd us up and yeh drove to wendy's then ii crashed there for a while. photo whoring and yehs.. goshie ii miss him already =[! but blehhs.. ii jst feel soo bad ! calld dad to pcik me up, then ii drove from wendy;s back home! it was soo cool, saw kwarn on the way home! LOLS. that ass hardcore checkin me out until he realised it was ii =P LOSER! & then yehhs.. got home and noww.. im like tryin to finish my assignment ii simply give up =[ ! awwh ii miss him, his smell is all ovr me.. YUMS! *smile hardcoree*

. baby. its for keep .. xx

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26O4O7. Thursday ! @01.12am

chatterbox; bie & nhiem& ly and kylie
feel the beats; amy rubin her feet
status; tiredd

anzac day today!hahaho no school,, train it to the city myself, michael totally ditched me and trained it there with ant, buh yeh train it there with clar and saw my smexy wendy and marian and yehs.. fckn shiet .. cruised aournd the city for a while and then bum to southbank and then joe suggestd movies, so we all went and watch 'distrubia' i watched it again buh was like soo scared at the last part, bkos its like soo jumpy hahas,.. me and my likeee ! hahas.. and then bum at amy's for her partyy.. wooo smexyy cakes! and then here ii anm,, ahhas sleepin ovr and havin bumsexx! woo baby!! shiet. hahas .. fck im hypoate.. is that even a word? hrmms.. might end it here before ii sound like a freak.

. love at first sight .. xx

2.o9pm Thursday 26th april.

jst realised that wenever he txt me .. ii smile.. buh then agains i dnt wanna fall for him, i jst dnt wanna be known as a bf stealer. & there is nothing we can do ..that is all.. ima emo bitch.. thnk gosh im at twee's atm. or imma be soo self hurtin! no, ii shall never let a tear fall for a guy! nevr never agains! =[

. this feelings. .. xx

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23O4O7. Monday ! @06.12pm

chatterbox; twee& dong
feel the beats; Marques Houston - Circle
status; normal..? craving for ice creams

my head wants to move on.. but my heart wont let go..

. secrets&lies .. xx

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22O4O7. Sunday ! @10.15am

chatterbox; KHoaLE, JAYLONG!, joolie, kenny, kylie & hoa!
feel the beats; please dnt go away - brown boy
status; tired & hungus!

ii feel soo cold hearted ! im gonna play this game on my own, bkos this time i dnt wanna get hurt ! eh.. he called me last night.. ii didnt really think that ii would be smiley and smiling after ii received his fone calls.. but fck that ii aint fallin in love! never agains.. grrsh ! ii dnt give a shiet anymores.. iim so fed up with this emo feelings! im gonna play my games nicely =] & this time watch me stand up high and never fall back down ! :) :) kylie must be proud of me now! oh im such a bitch! :D

. not the girl yu used to know -quote from kyliepuff.. xx

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21O4O7. Saturday! @ 9.08pm

woke up like 1ish this morning, hahahs.. damn didnt feel like doing anything so stayd home all day today ! workd on the other blog! fckn le that faggot! anyways.. assignments.. was suppose to work on one of my assignment, but end up i didnt ! hahas.. fck aye.. too lazyy ! gahs ii need more sleep.. might go sleep soonskie! yesh yesh ive gained weight ~! hahahO.. im fat fat :) but first needa gunbound it with michael those fags got me hookd into that game agains ! hahahas :) :):) im out~

. officially missing you .. xx <

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19O4O7. Thursday ! @09.21pm

thursday ! hate thurday, dislike it soo much ! got the boringest subjects today! first got geography with twee such a bludge! not really.. hate the man teacher so much! *mumbles* he kept babbling like a fckn female teacher, never shut ups =.= ! anyways.. moving on, english.. still havnt chose a peom for my speech! ii swear, choosin a poem is such a pain in the ass! fought it would be simple! >< .. then had access; all bout QCS rararh.. fell asleep hrmms.. then biology! eh.. such a bludge also! slept in class!
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HAPPY CHERRY DAYY best wishes my dearest & loving yuu!

what did i do after school ?. hoa called up to go to watch him play soccor! so he came pickd me up. twee &amy were also there! *big smilee * hahas.. yesh yesh! it was funn.. did some lovely cam whoring from the soccor centre back to twee's home.!!

. im so over it !.. xx

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18O4O7. Wednesday ! @ O5.13pm

chatterbox; appeard offline
feel the beats; Digga - Broken
status; tired & sleepyy

school was a normal day today! noting happen bside falling asleep in home economic! and receiving my mark back for biology for my assignment.. FCK! ii swear !, my mark had drop soo bad ever sincee.. ii dnt know wotever happened.. TT' . D+ for biology.. how worster and dumber can ii get.. fck & now im thinkin if ii should sit for my QCS or not.. ><' im such a failure! arrgghhs.. & ii nvr gonna eat from canteen nomore.. david found a beetle's backshell in his hotdog ! faarkn disgustin shiet.. made me gross out wen ii was like nearly finihsin my burger! ii was.. actually enjoy eating it & rubbin it in thuy's facE! hahas
happy times with these wannabe innocence girls ! snapshots! <3

& then.. me & amy were being a fckn fckface and made up a few lame words.. buh ii find it funnyy.. and cool :)

unsex safe! ; sex unsafe ; safe unsex !

LOLOLS.. ii know we;re such faggs ! moving on.. ah.! dumahs, suppose to go ovr to joolie's place to cut her haiir ! ahhs.. cant get there bkos a few people comin ovr to check the house out! thats right.. might be moving houses! ;) a beetter one too.. :) :D hahas! eh.. DL broken by digga ! its the best song ever.. hoa that fag got me hooked into it now ! *stares*

. it kept growing every sec .. xx

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17O4O7. Tuesday ! @10.03pm

chatterbox; KHoaLE, Le, michael.N & thomas!
feel the beats; real love - massari
status; lost & confused =/

BACK TO SCHOOL NIGGAH ! hahas.. today was pretty boring! nothing interesting happen.. bside receivin the best news in the whole wide world ! ii get a week of extention for my english assignment speechy thingg! gosh.. it was due this week but thnk gosh! hahas got another week to work on it! :) :) but the bad news was.. that.. ii received my mathsB exam mark backk !! oh gosh! ii did soo BAD! iim soo cut at myself! >< ii got.. a D+ ! LIKE wTF BRO!.. =.=' :@ cut to the coree TT'

. broken promisess .. xx

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16O4O7. Monday! @ 8.45pm

i never knew mum would be so nice to me since what've been happenin for the past few weeks, i really thought tat i would be stuck at home all day today! which totally suck, but mum let me out ! oh love her so much, wells woke up at 11ish and traind it to the city around 12ish. god damns.. met up with the others and god knows what happen.. everyone was everywhere, so ii cruised around with talina & jina my two baby girls! xx hahas.. fckn bumd around for hours and hours. ! did a lil shopping, spent most of my dosh on new clothes!! arghh ! needa save dosh to get my tongue done!

& most of my dosh went to area 58 ! =.= & do what girls love doingg! PHOTOWHORING! !!^^!

after awhile wen the girls decided to ditch me and go home.. calld thaii up & jst cruised around with him and the other guys for a while then he drove me home! shietts.. schools tomorrow and im so not ready ! i still want some more holidays, geebus! more stress here ii come!

knowing that yu will neevr be mine..
xx

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15O4O7. Sunday! @ 4.30pm

home sweet home!
feel soo relaxing wen i came back home! oh, i miss my bed soo much ! and my room and all my clothes! how can hobo survive.. seriously! dont they even miss their room or anything ? >< hahas .. wells mum and dad is bein extra nice to me! :) muahahs! my plan really workd! joolie whereveer yu are! im worried for yuu and and ii love yuu so muchie >< !! im fckn covered with cuts and bruises from last night! aiiyahs.. shouldnt of drink ! wen theres noone there too look after me probably.. TT' regrets..

. ii never meant to fall .. xx <

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